the truth

if this comes off as somewhat of an angry blog, you'd be interpreting my feelings correctly. all my life I have been thin. both of my parents were thin growing up and I was "lucky" enough to inherit my father's incredibly high metabolism and my height from my mother's incredibly tall family(with the shortest person being my mom and aunt at 5'8''). no, I am not and never have been either anorexic or bulemic. I love to eat and fully digest all of my food. I hate the term skinny, it makes me feel grose. yet for as long as I can remember, since I was just a little girl, I have been made fun because I have always been tall and thin. people have always told me to "shut-up", that I don't know what I'm talking about when I say I have a hard time finding clothes that fit. people make comments like, "you've weighed the same since grade 6(or whatever)"...well just to clear something up, I have gained at least 30lbs since then. to clear something up, I weigh well over 100lbs. believe it or not I'm 130. I'm not saying that society doesn't put pressure on girls to be "skinny". I know it does. but I am thin and I have also been made to feel grose and "less than human" and so on. for years, with much struggle, I have been trying to gain weight.(and I'm well aware that some of you who read this will think to yourselves...she's ridiculous! she has no clue what she's talking about. she just wants attention. she's thin. she's got it all as far as the ideal body is concerned.) well for starters, stop judging me. and also, I'm not ridiculous for feeling the way I do. and I don't want attention. I want exactly the opposite. I want people to leave me alone about my height and weight. I hate that you stare and comment about it! I hate it! and another thing, I don't have the ideal body. I'm taller than several guys and I don't have an "ample bossom". far from it. maybe I wouldn't have such a hard time liking how I am if you'd all stop commenting on it and making fun of it, making me feel like crap. just a thought.